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Name: Perillo
Country: United States
Gender: Female
Interests: Boys, manga, anime, hair dye, tv, art, reading, writing songs, acting, sleeping, fefe dobson, elijah wood, zine design!, xanga, websites, sleeping, drama, shakespeare, fruitloops, Johnny Depp, Gale Harold, QAF, movies, LAURI YLONEN, and The Rasmus(xoxo).
Expertise: Your Boyfriend.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Art
Message: message me
Member Since:
1/29/2004
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I have decided to delete this xanga. This one is way to easy to find when knowing my true identity and these are my personal thoughts. Everyone's personal thoughts are highly private and sometimes outragous. In my journey with my xanga since january of this year I have gone through a lot of things: Dealing with cutting as some of you may know that I was struggling with to get over because of issues that I will leave (in the shadows) at this moment. I have met a boy I admire, and who is a very special friend to me. I have rekindled a relationship with another boy who's opinion I will always think highly of. I have had doubts about my friendship with my best friend. I have gone through finacial insucrities when my mother lost her job. And I have been publically ridiculed by classmants because of my political opinions.
I had a rough year last year, and I think I am finally picking up the peices and moving on. Many of you may find that masses of my entries have dissappered. And some of you (a very select few who I have choosen I would have choosen more but curse xanga) will find everything normal. The reason is that those missing entries are very very private entries, stupid stuff even.
I have gone through so much and I am such a differnt person because of it. Over the summer, my experience with Adrienne. My friendship with Jon that I treasure because when you find people who are like you hold on to them. I can't find a lot of people who have the same sense of humor than me et cetera. My reletionship with my mother and family... everything.
I want to thank everyone who is subscribed to me and vice-versa. You have become my dear friends and my companions on this bumpy ride through never-land as I finally grow up (but still am obsessed with Lauri Ylonen who I may never grow out of... I can live with that.) It may seem stupid, but you people have encouraged me and let me into your lives, I have seen through the window you have provided me. And I will cherish that. For everyone who I am close to please reply to this good-bye entry I know those closest to me will stay in touch like Jonathan, Kathleen, Illuminesscne (I can never spell that right), all my Rasmus sisters, RoarTyrannics, Suicide_journal, those are just a few that I want to say, thank you.
To ever get in touch IM me at: Pirateonaisle5 This is Loseronaisle5 signing off. | | |
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I love sexy intellectual boys.
I must say that the intellectual boys are sooo hot these days. Even a lot of them in the game stores and such... *sigh* I need to get me a boy.
This entry was pointless... but comment anyway please?-- LOSERONAISLE5 | | |
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thanks to lil_j_0270
"Have You Ever Heard Of A Submerge Pump?
You see I am planning on getting one of these, because they like pump 50 gallons of water out really fast. My plan is to empty someone's pool into their house... it will be hilarius."...... Jon always has these ingenuis little plans that could possible get him sent to jail for 4-8 years, this was one that he was planning out as we were goofily talking when it started to rain today in World History (which is outside of the school.) All the girls were gone ('cept for me and Melissa) so it was pretty much a free time.
The other kids are very "dramatic" as Jon states and we planned to capture them and make them fight each other in the classroom. We planned it all out you see because the boys are always punching each other and stuff and all Jon does is sit over there... haha. We will put these collars on them (electric ones) and a circle out of the desks around the room. Then we will sit on top of the desks with chair just like The Romans. It's a fight to the death and if you win you get a bigger weapon.
Doesn't this sound like an interesting plan?
So today my mother pulls over and picks a "passion flower" or Maypop I have never seen one but she always talks about them. I think they are absolutly beautiful. Here is a picture: 
I feel rapturous-- Loseronaisle5
I am thinking about moving my xanga to a name called: eating_butterflies. So heads up. | | |
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One Of These Days I Will Get There.Amazing. Amazed. Today was like what is shaping to be the regular life of Loseronaisle5 this is the key events that happens on these regular days:
Get Up
Ignore Republican Bias in bible class
Talk to Jon
Go to more classes
Take more boring notes while talking to Jon
Stop at locker occasionally, talk to Jon who has the locker next to mine.
Ignore more Republican bullshit.
Go to lunch and be ignored by most of my peers.
Go to computer or history and talk to Jon some more while taking notes or "learning to make a computer file." (haha) If in history actually listen to interesting teacher who actually has a brain.
Exchange some sort of remark about Art to Jon while leaving.
Go to Art (without Jon because he is in Art II) or go to study hall and do more boring school work.
Leave school with mother.
Come home.
Promise self to do homework.
Gets on the computer.
Promises Mom will do homework.
Stays on computer writing sensless shit like this.
Waits to almost 10 o'clock and sleepily does homework while Mother is yelling to go to bed.
Goes to bed around twelve.
Add a little more "ignore's republican bullshit presented by close minded brats who listen to everything their mommy's and daddy's spoon feed them because they are incapable of thinking for themselves or opening their mind for one second." and yea, you have my full fucking day in a nutshell. It's sad when I talk to Jon more then I talk to anyone else all day... Maybe it's not sad, maybe it's just... smart.
I watched The Daily Show With Jon Stewart today and Bill Clinton was on it... that was some good stuff, GO BILL!! (Bill should run again, before Bush declares himself Ceaser [heehee])
Best Regards to you and your life, Thank you for reading---LOSERONAISLE5
P.s. Mom paid 600$ I get to stay at school (screams in agony) - Help Me Sing - - | | |
| Changes. As you can see there is a big change on my xanga this is one of two reasons:
1) I'm sick and tired of messing around with layouts thy are a pain in the but.
2) I won't have time to mess around with layouts now that school has started.
So sorry. Anyway, school started and since I am not friends with any of the girls who I once was friends with (that has something to do with xanga even...); Leigh and Cassie graduated; and Adrienne (yaoi) doesn't go to my school. I am forced to make new friends. Which is hard in a little private school. Fortunatly somehow Jon took a liking to me at the end of the year last year and he has been very very cool towards me this year. We talk about lots of stuff and hang out at school. Which is good for me because he hangs out with the only er... "artsy" crowd at my school anyway. I used to really like Jon, but now I would rather be friends with him. Not just because I must be a moron and actually don't have a crush on any boy this year, but also because this girl who obviously likes him (and I think he likes her) is one of the coolest nicest girls at my school. I have changed so much over the summer. Adrienne came home before school started and I met her at the airport she was happy to see me. I spent the night that night and we watched Vanilla Sky, The Royal Tennenbaums, and Donnie Darko. She makes me so unhappy sometimes. She called me up today and she started talking about these three people in her life who she compares herself to and she feels they are always better than her... an so on. Then she asks me if I have ever felt like that. I felt like saying No DUH! I feel that way everytime I'm around you. Like I'm not good enough, like look at her she is my age... and look at how she is. But don't get me wrong I love her... maybe that's what wrong. Because I know she could stop loving me at anytime and still go on living. The only problem is I would stop living. My other was informed that we owe 600$ for tution from last year so I might be taken out of my school soon anyway. We can't raise that money and she screams at me non-stop. Sometimes I feel like I just can't do anything right and I will never get to go anywhere. loseronaislefive | | |
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