| | Changes. As you can see there is a big change on my xanga this is one of two reasons:
1) I'm sick and tired of messing around with layouts thy are a pain in the but.
2) I won't have time to mess around with layouts now that school has started.
So sorry. Anyway, school started and since I am not friends with any of the girls who I once was friends with (that has something to do with xanga even...); Leigh and Cassie graduated; and Adrienne (yaoi) doesn't go to my school. I am forced to make new friends. Which is hard in a little private school. Fortunatly somehow Jon took a liking to me at the end of the year last year and he has been very very cool towards me this year. We talk about lots of stuff and hang out at school. Which is good for me because he hangs out with the only er... "artsy" crowd at my school anyway. I used to really like Jon, but now I would rather be friends with him. Not just because I must be a moron and actually don't have a crush on any boy this year, but also because this girl who obviously likes him (and I think he likes her) is one of the coolest nicest girls at my school. I have changed so much over the summer. Adrienne came home before school started and I met her at the airport she was happy to see me. I spent the night that night and we watched Vanilla Sky, The Royal Tennenbaums, and Donnie Darko. She makes me so unhappy sometimes. She called me up today and she started talking about these three people in her life who she compares herself to and she feels they are always better than her... an so on. Then she asks me if I have ever felt like that. I felt like saying No DUH! I feel that way everytime I'm around you. Like I'm not good enough, like look at her she is my age... and look at how she is. But don't get me wrong I love her... maybe that's what wrong. Because I know she could stop loving me at anytime and still go on living. The only problem is I would stop living. My other was informed that we owe 600$ for tution from last year so I might be taken out of my school soon anyway. We can't raise that money and she screams at me non-stop. Sometimes I feel like I just can't do anything right and I will never get to go anywhere. loseronaislefive |
| | Posted 8/14/2004 2:51 PM - 4 Views - 8 eProps - 5 comments
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