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I have decided to delete this xanga. This one is way to easy to find when knowing my true identity and these are my personal thoughts. Everyone's personal thoughts are highly private and sometimes outragous. In my journey with my xanga since january of this year I have gone through a lot of things: Dealing with cutting as some of you may know that I was struggling with to get over because of issues that I will leave (in the shadows) at this moment. I have met a boy I admire, and who is a very special friend to me. I have rekindled a relationship with another boy who's opinion I will always think highly of. I have had doubts about my friendship with my best friend. I have gone through finacial insucrities when my mother lost her job. And I have been publically ridiculed by classmants because of my political opinions.

I had a rough year last year, and I think I am finally picking up the peices and moving on. Many of you may find that masses of my entries have dissappered. And some of you (a very select few who I have choosen I would have choosen more but curse xanga) will find everything normal. The reason is that those missing entries are very very private entries, stupid stuff even.

I have gone through so much and I am such a differnt person because of it. Over the summer, my experience with Adrienne. My friendship with Jon that I treasure because when you find people who are like you hold on to them. I can't find a lot of people who have the same sense of humor than me et cetera. My reletionship with my mother and family... everything.

I want to thank everyone who is subscribed to me and vice-versa. You have become my dear friends and my companions on this bumpy ride through never-land as I finally grow up (but still am obsessed with Lauri Ylonen who I may never grow out of... I can live with that.) It may seem stupid, but you people have encouraged me and let me into your lives, I have seen through the window you have provided me. And I will cherish that. For everyone who I am close to please reply to this good-bye entry I know those closest to me will stay in touch like Jonathan, Kathleen, Illuminesscne (I can never spell that right), all my Rasmus sisters, RoarTyrannics, Suicide_journal, those are just a few that I want to say, thank you.

To ever get in touch IM me at: Pirateonaisle5